My spouse shared this song with me a while back and I instantly loved it! From the line “figure it out, just don’t stop moving” to “don’t stop the past’ll trip you up”, this song has so much to offer. Put it on and start running…you won’t stop!
My ‘new normal’ got in my way again…and this time it doubled down!
I’ve been trying to develop eating habits and exercise habits that last, habits that become so much a part of my lifestyle that it’s second nature. (If it’s second nature for you, I hate you ha ha…but I envy you too.) In the past I’ve had some luck losing weight with various eating plans…Atkins, Lean Cuisine, Whole 30, I’ve done them all…and I’ve had luck with various exercise plans, multiple gym memberships, and even hired trainers. All of these worked for a while, but for me they didn’t instill daily habits that became a permanent part of my lifestyle, no matter what was going on in life.
I’ve gotten off track many times because of some kind of life event…we moved, I got a different job within my company or changed companies, we took a major vacation, etc. One of the things I’ve learned over these past 30 years of dieting & exercise is that I need constant focus and motivation to stay on track and if there’s a blip in life that distracts my focus, so goes the diet and exercise.
This year has been all about developing those lasting habits with practices that will keep me focused and motivated. I was doing pretty well this year…eating right, exercising, losing some weight, working on this blog. Then life struck again and I had a ‘new normal’ to deal with. I was handling it pretty well when two weeks later life happened again and the ‘new normal’ became new yet again.
But first, a little about the photo. Throughout 2017 the message of authenticity kept showing itself to me. It seemed like no matter where I was or what I was doing, I would see a message of someone being their authentic self…’living their truth’…and it was stirring a passion in me to examine myself and start taking steps to make changes. I was meditating a lot on life, career, what my priorities should be, and what I was really passionate about. Then 2018 came around and the message morphed. I began to see the message of ‘vulnerability’ repeatedly. From reading, friends, movies, music, church…you name it, it was there. One of the things I learned is that if you are going to be authentic you’ve got to be vulnerable. Wow. This hit me big time. And the universe keeps dropping this message in my path, sometimes literally haha, where I took the photo yesterday while I was out on my walk.
So all this year I’m trying to be my authentic self, live my truth, be vulnerable, and get fit…and life hits me with new normals. At the end of March I was laid off from my corporate job. While I was rolling with that punch pretty well two weeks later it became necessary for us to move my father in with us because Hospice decided he should no longer live alone. Now, I firmly believe some things happen for a reason and are meant to be. After going through the process of packing my father out of his home and getting him unpacked & settled into one bedroom in our house, I can say there is no way I could have done that with a full-time job. I actually had not been happy in my corporate job for a long time so I was at peace about moving on, but man the timing was perfect. However, everything else I was doing personally…exercise, blog, etc…fell off track.
So here I am, getting back on track, getting back to work on this blog, and trying to be a little more vulnerable each day. I’ve not lost any weight in the last 2 months, but I didn’t gain any either, so that’s good. I’ve been trying to get focused and start moving the needle again. Of course at some point I have to start thinking about making money again, but funny as it may sound, I’m not making that a priority at the moment.
As of this writing the blog is still not public. This is a big vulnerability hump that I’m working on and looking for the right timing. Also, I’ve started studying for a personal trainer certification. I figured the knowledge would help to keep me focused and can only help me be a healthier me. Afterwards, we’ll see where it leads. I’ve not really talked about this either because it’a also a big vulnerability hump.
I’m working on the humps, I’m spending time with my father, I’m studying and learning about training, but most of all I’m trying to get focused and stay motivated. I sincerely appreciate your help 🙂
I’ve come to a conclusion…diets that exclude certain foods don’t work. Well, I should say they don’t last. One time I lost 40 lbs by excluding carbs and sugars…but the weight came back. Excluding food doesn’t teach you how to manage the food, on an ongoing basis, controlling your calories no matter what you choose to eat. Also, depriving yourself of something and saying ‘I can’t have that’ takes your focus off what’s important. You spend more time focusing on the things you’re not allowed to eat instead of focusing on what you can eat. I’ve also found that I tend to want what I can’t have so the small craving for what I’m excluding turns into a massive craving and that usually doesn’t end well.
So I had this drink on Saturday. I managed it, along with a couple of others, within my alloted calories for that day…and I still lost a pound over the weekend. I had whatever I wanted and it was great…I just did it within my allotted calories for the day.
That’s why this topic is a motivator today. Knowing that I can eat whatever I want helps to keep me motivated! I just tweak my nutrition & exercise throughout the day to manage my calories to a deficit. It’s hard enough trying to change your body through this process…I don’t need added stress over a craving for a piece of chocolate…so the ‘keep it simple’ idea really works here.
Eat whatever you want and be motivated!
The last few weeks have been difficult for me. Challenges that I’ve had at work and with friends have resulted in challenges with my fitness plan. These compounded at the same time and at times I’ve been angry with people and myself, hurt by people, disappointed in people, my employer, and myself, and depressed. It’s been a tough few weeks. I’ve felt like I’ve been dog-paddling to keep my head above water while various people in a boat are dumping buckets of water on me.
Through all of this I’ve been reminded of one of the first big lessons I ever learned…people will let you down. The part I never really moved on to, until now, is perhaps what the rest of that is. If you can’t depend on people, who (or what) are you gonna depend on? It’s like they say on the airplanes when they’re talking about that hypothetical ‘falling out of the sky’ scenario, put your own air mask on before helping anyone else. You have to help yourself before you can help anyone else…or another way of saying it is, you better believe in yourself before you believe in anyone else. And you know what, the other passengers might let you down if you wait around for them to help you.
So today I’m reciting this over and over and over again…’I believe in me’. It’s simple, but so powerful that sometimes I can’t get it out, especially for someone with a lifetime of self-conscience issues and self-doubt. But my friends have proven to me that they won’t always be there. And my employer has proven to me that they may not even want me anymore.
I have to be grounded in me.
I have to be focused on me.
I have to be motivated for me.
Even though others may have the best intentions, I have to believe in me…if I don’t, who will?